I dare say that I am ashamed to cry in front of anyone. No matter how close this person is to me, it would be difficult for me to do this. However, some people, on the contrary, feel comfortable in front of loved ones and can show real emotions
No one cares about your feelings as a man. So, when you cry in front of people, they see you as a weakling person which doesn't do so well for you. Keep it down and grind out.